The joys of pregnancy. This statement is equally ironic and literal. It is a wondrous and miserable time. It comes with weight gain and numerous feelings about said weight. I have personally told numerous post-partem clients their bodies are amazing. “Your body made a person.” If I’ve said it once, I’ve said it a hundred times. And I meant it. Now I am experiencing it. Some days are all wonder and awe. Other days are all frequent urination, round ligament pain, pressure, exhaustion, and oh my goodness do I really have to pee again????
As I approach my third trimester, I am noticing definite growth. More than once, I’ve asked my husband, “Was I this big this morning?” I’ve also never been more comfortable in my own body. Don’t get me wrong, I have experienced both love and loathing of my body in the past. But somehow, this is different.
I think part of it is the wonder of it all. There’s a little person growing and developing inside me, and it’s amazing. I can feel her move, and there’s something incredible about that that I can’t even put into words. Part of it is I get to eat more. There’s no judgement for the pregnant lady who would like an extra roll.
But I think what really makes me so comfortable is knowing my body looks how it’s supposed to look. There have been times in my life in which my insides and outsides did not match. For example, I had an injury that preventing me from working out. On the inside, I felt like strong, lean, active woman. But on the outside, my muscles wasted away and my body became soft. I was frustrated and embarrassed. Now, my weight is creeping up because it should. My belly growing means my daughter is growing. The numbers on the scale that used to make me crazy are just a number to me. They creep up each month, and I am at peace with it.
I believe very strongly that you are more than the measure of your waistline. Your weight does not define your value as a person. If you remember nothing else from me, remember that. After years of struggling with that concept, I finally feel it. I know after the baby is born, I will be back in weight loss mode. I know it will take time to get that weight off. And I’m okay with that. My body (and my baby!) is healthy, and that is what is important to me.